I don’t even know where to begin to answer this. I am a very different person. I am actually in the process of finding a place to assess me I have suspected autism for years and now with two children on the spectrum I suspect it even more so. I take in things so different from people around me that many simple things are super uncomfortable or awkward for me. I still do them obviously I am 39 I have made it this far in life coping but being in groups, large crowds, restaurants, these are only a few things or places where I feel out of place. But feeling like I am comfy and belong has always been hard for me. Not that I am unhappy it just always felt off.