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Hi my name is Brandy. I am from the divided states of corruption. I am beyond ashamed to be born on this stolen land and continuing to live here while I watch my country’s leaders enable another country to also steal land from another group of oppressed people and also funding their genocide. I am sick to my stomach as I watch the millions of Americans daily follow the herd mentality of just listening to the leaders and our skewed media articles that promote lies and propaganda to keep people with their blinders on. I refuse to be like that. I will never trust anything at face value. I will always question and investigate and get close to the source of the truth. I understand what is happening in our world. I never thought I would witness a holocaust in 2024 but here we are. And thanks to technology it’s online every single day. All day. I try to keep it together. I try to help the best I can. My heart aches for these innocent people. I feel so much guilt because I can see my home, my family, I have food and water at any given second. It’s not fair to mass murder people for no reason. How are people so blind. What happened to their hearts? Why did half of America lose their shit to get roe v wade overturned and take away women’s right to have autonomy over their own bodies, and to ban abortion and give more rights to a clump of cells rather than have concern for the living children in this country and our broken system. Where is all that oh we’re Christian and these cells are human and you can’t remove them because it’s murder, where are you nuts now when they are blowing up actual living breathing newborns, toddlers and children. Injuring them, leaving them orphaned, missing limbs, going without medical care, being forcibly starved, really what in the actual Fuck is wrong with people in this country and the world. The US has all the power to stop or have stopped this before it turned into genocide and war crimes. That’s all for now I am still trying to understand. I talk to these beautiful people daily that America and Israel are trying to kill off and they are the most kind and gentle people. They are people they are human and they have rights. They deserve to simply exist.

Horrors of our world

Honestly I thought writing about this would be therapeutic but I don’t think I am ready to be able to put into words everything I am feeling about the genocide that is being committed right now in Gaza. The fact that my country is part of the responsible parties is something I cannot wrap my head around. First let me say, any government groups committing crimes or acts of violence no matter where they are from I do not condone or agree with. I also do not see this as political, Israel’s genocide on Gaza is criminal and a human issue. What is happening right now is on my mind every single day. I feel so much guilt when I am home warm, with food, water, hugging my babies. Simple things. Why should I be so privileged? And yet across the ocean there are humble normal people just the same and because of where they were born they are treated as less than human. It’s so wrong. I remember in the 10 th grade we had to read the book “Night” by Elie Weisel, it left an impression on me so strong I will never forget the things I read about. I also remember after reading it I had some sense of peace knowing Hitler was dead and that couldn’t happen ever again, because it was so wrong and awful no one would allow that kind of history repeat itself. Yet here we are. It’s 2024 and the US and Israel are committing a modern day holocaust on these people. Babies and children. Unarmed civilians just trying to live their life. It has changed my perspective. It leaves me sad for these people because my country is turning their backs to these innocents and pretend like nothing is even happening. These are people. They love their babies, they love their family, their children love their parents more than anything just like us. Why should their existence be so difficult, so traumatic? It is just so heartbreaking. I included a piece of digital artwork I created here. I have been trying to think of some way to raise money to help these people in any way I can, because no one deserves this. What is happening to them is a crime. It is also wrong and unless you are a psychopath I cannot imagine you seeing it as anything different.

Free Palestine! Ceasefire now and forever.

Advice to my teenage self

What advice would you give to your teenage self?

If I could give younger me some advice it would be that your differences from everyone else make you beautiful and unique inside and out. The amazing people you will meet in life will see that. You don’t need to try to make people like you, be yourself because the real you is attractive. And you have a big beautiful heart that will be appreciated in time. Not many people have that much compassion so use it for all the good you can in the world.